Brave and strong woman

I thought at first that my problem about my family right now is really big problem and that I thought I couldnt handle it. Yesterday at work I took a break and talked to my co-worker about my problem. He was telling me that everything is okay. I thought it's a worse problem people can have until he talked to me about his own problem.

He has a long time girlfriend and have cancer. His girlfriend battle her cancer for a year now and just recently the doctor told her girlfriend that the cancer spread on her liver and she only have 2-3 months to live. When I heard that story I told myself that my problem and worries are nothing compared to them but they are very strong. Instead of spending the rest of thier time mourning and worried about whats going to happen, they spend time together having fun and do something they havent been done yet. His girlfriend even said that she still wants to continue her dream like going back to school, buy her own house until she is physically unstable. She don't want anybody to feel sorry for her. She is a very brave and strong individual. I wish everybody have the same guts and braviness.

At work!

Time went too slow at work today. It wasn't easy for me at work today but it's feels good knowing that my co-workers supported me. I wasn't feeling good but can't take any vacations yet especially holiday is coming.

Now, looking forward for Sunday. Hope everything will work out good..

Diet and workouts! works for me..

A year ago I used to weigh 150 lbs. That was a year after having my second child. It was so frustrating coz I couldn't wear my old clothes. I used to be 110 lbs before having babies. I met this one person, I can't call her a friend that was been critisizing me. She told me that I was fat and ugly. It hurt me but guess what it motivated me to start having a diet and do workouts. July of 2009 I started my diet then did some workouts. It was so hard on the very beginning because i was just so excited for the result right away, but it didnt work that way.. When we do dietand workouts we need to have patience coz you can't see the result right away, it takes time. After 4 months I still didnt see any progress, I didn't give up and still continued by diet and workouts. Early this year, I started seeing the result, I lost 5 lbs at first, I was so happy and it made me addicted to do diet and workouts. I only go to the gym twice a week and sometimes once a week. I do workouts at home most of the time.

It's been over a year now and I am so happy with the results. I weight 103 lbs now and wearing size 0 and 1 jeans from size 9. I feel more confisent of my self and it helps me gain self-esteem. Some of my friends couldnt even believe that I did it but results dont lie. I am so happy now and very contented with what i weigh but I am still hoping toreach my goal by december which 100 lbs.

If others can do it, why cante we!... It's always never too late...

Terrifying night!

One morning, I had a big arguments with my husband about our personal problems. He made me really mad so I told him I fell out of love with him, he was mad and shocked, couldn't believe that I was gonna say it. Before going to work Tuesday morning, I left a note for him telling him that I was gonna move out Thursday that week and we can just talk about the kids, since we have two kids. He was so quite and never responded with my notes so I thought everything was fine. Until Wednesday night when I came home from work, I saw the driveway without his car in there and from that very moment I felt that something wasn't right. I opened the door and saw an empty house, him and the kids we're gone. I was terrified and knocked out on the floor, with shocking feeling and couldn't remember what happened in the next an hour. I got back up and called a friend, was crying and didn't know what to do until I went to the kitchen and was about to do suicide. I was really hurt and felt so horrible. I tried calling my husband's phone but it was off. It even made me more felt horrible. I was just crying the whole night and waiting for his call.

The next morning I tried calling his phone again and finally it was ringing. He answered it and I was so hysterical, yelling at him and told him that we're done. I asked him why he did such thing and he told me he was scared if iwill move out and bring the kids with me and he can;t never see them anymore. I wasn't even thinking like that. I begged him to come back or just at least I can see the kids again. He was about to visit me at work and bring the kids but i couldn't go to work that time, I didnt have sleep and didn't feel like working. I told him that we can meet somewhere but he was scared if i will call a police.

Finally Sunday afternoon they came back home. I was so happy and crying at the same time while hugging my kids again. It feels good that they are back home but the feeling I felt about what he did will never gone in my heart. Now we are trying to work things out and I don't know what will happen next!..

Thanks for reading and have a great day to all!

Wow!..

It's been quite awhile since I last visited my blog, so here I am again. Through all those times that I was gone, I experienced so many things, the changes and founding the real meaning of friendships.
In our lives, we can count whose the real friends are when we are in a tough situations. Someone who will never leave you and judge you whatever it is. Someone you calnlean on and you can talk to when you needed someone. I have this friend name Teresa, and she's been my friend for 5 years now. We don't see each other everyday but we both know that we love each other. She's been so very supportive to me and she never left me. It's hard to find a real friend who can understand the real you!..