Sad Night

It was a long for me at work today. It was a great day and we had so much fun until when I found out that I lost my money in my pocket. It was very frustrating coz it;s not easy to make money but, looking at in the positive way, maybe the person who finds it realy needs it most that I am but they should return it if they know that it wasn't there money. Maybe there are only very few honest people on earth and hopefully everybody will try to be honest, coz as what the saying said, "Do not do unto others what you don't want others do unto you". I came home and called my friend cecil to tell her abotu what happen just to have a relief from the frustration I have. I told my self that It's okay, It was only a money. There are more important things that I am gonna have to pay attention about,,,,huhuhuhu...

Dreaming about my dead friend

Back 2001,It was one Sunday morning our friends came to the house brought some news about our other friend who has been shot dead and dumped in the middle of a sugarcane plantation. It was a sad day for and for the whole neighborhood and the saddest thing was it was also our neighbors who did the crime. This was the story I've heard. Saturday night b4 the incident happened a group of the victim friends got drunk in one of their friend's house(3 friends). They had so much fun but the victim didn't know that it was really a plan from his Friends to kill him that night. They said it was a jealousy that made his friends to kill him two of them is his own cousin. So everybody was panic that day and didn't understand why. we couldn't believe the such a crime will happened to our community coz our community was known to be a friendly neighborhood. So they brought the dead body of our friend to the funeral homes and did some autopsy to find out what was really the cause of his death and it was a shot from his head. All the suspects disappear in the following morning but still the police caught them. They've been investigated and waiting for their trials without even putting them in a prison. Nobody really knows who shoot him, we just knew that group of them but who really shoot him, we didn't know. Parents of the victim were very devastated specially they were only 2 siblings in the family, him the victim and his sister. Everybody is praying and hoping that they'll found which one of his friend that shoot him.

A month goes by, would you believe it or not 2 of the suspects died from sleeping only one left alive. The rumor from the other suspect was being poisoned and the other suspect died from his sleep. They said it was a cardiac arrest that killed the other suspect but no one believe them. We believe that it was God's way of letting the family of the victims knows who really killed their son. so since then i always dream about the victim. He always appear on my dreams even if I always makes a prayer for him that he'll be ok and his family also were ok and not to make me dream about him anymore. But last night it my dreams, he showed to me who really killed him. In my dreams it was his cousin, one from the group of friends who got drunk that Saturday night, is the one who killed him, the one who is still alive. It was weird but I don't know why he keep appearing on my dreams. Hopefully he is happy now coz everybody is happy now. his family has move on already so praying that he has too.

When Ally arrive...

May of 2005 I had 6 weeks old miscarriage. It was so sad and deppressing coz we were expecting a lot for our coming child but suddenly, was gone. It's hard for us to accept the fact that our baby was gone but I looked at it in a positive way, maybe it was really a God's will, coz if ever the baby survive but there will a problem on her health, that would be more painful for us to watch our child suffer. I went throu evacuate surgery to take out all the the blood since it was a blood yet inside my uterus.

7 months after, God gave us another blessings. early in the morning I had nusea, which was very weird for me coz I didn't know what happened. I told my husband that maybe I was pregnant but he was insisting me that I was not. I didn;t blame him coz maybe i had 4 pregnancy test in the past and it was all came out negative. We decided to visit OB Gyne to see to it if I wasn;t really pregnant. I took a text throu blood test but was still came out negative. One day we went to a grocery store and told my husband again to get another pregnancy test, but still he told me that I wasn't pregnant. This is what he exactly told me " No, you are not pregnant, you are just wasting your money to get that test", Thanks God I was hard headed enough not to listen to him and was still get the preganncy test, A day after, early in the morning I took a test and wow.... it was POSITIVE. Since my husband was at work, I immidiately called him and told him the news, He couldn't believe it and i can hear the happiness reaction he had that day. We were so excited for the future. we wewnt ot visit the OB gyne again, not the same OB gyne I had on my frist check up but different one, It was a male black doctor name Doctor Peterson of St. lukes episcopical clinic. He was so good. I had ultrasound to see if everything was ok, and Thanks God.. everything was fine. ON the 5th month ultrasound, we knew that it was a girl, and it was so exciting watching our baby inside my tummy, yawning, and having hiccup then she did thumb suck.. What a miracle from God.

The big day came. It was Sept. 27 at 11 pm, I started my labor and I couldn't understand the pain, it was really painful, We had phonecall my OB and told us to go to the hospital. 3 hours after they gave me epidural to ease the pain. wow, what a big relief. At 1:04 pm our daugther arrived by normal delivery..... and we named her Alyssa Jean Ross. It's been 2 years since she was born but everything seems so fresh to us.. All the experiences we had until now still unimagineable. She brought so much joy and happiness to us... and happy to say we have now 2 kids. The arrival of our second baby makes us complete.. Our family is complete and I am very happy for what God has given to us.

Haunted house

Most of us are dreaming to have oour own house, but not just a house, a big house. I met a friend who recently moved to thier new, big house around Texas. At first she was so happy and excited to start a new life with her family and kids. They have a very big house with a very big backyard. At first you can tell, how lucky she is to have this blessings but in return she has to deal with unwanted visitors.

One day, she was cleaning in the kitcher, she saw somebody at thier backyard, opening the refrigerator, since they also have ref. outside and drank some water. She toke a glance and it was her husband. But when she went to thier bedroom to get something, her hsuband was thier sleeping. She felt scared and trying to realized how did it happened that her husband was in two places at the same time. So she was just ignoring the situation, another incident happened. She was takign a nap and lying down on the floor with her son, she noticed a little girl watching them from upstairs, but when she was trying to go closer, no one is thier. She she went back to sleep but she felt again that somebody is watching her standing in forn of her where she layed down. She started saying a Prayer. She was trying to tell her hsuband about she discovered and experiences but her husband don;t believe it. Is there really an unwanted visitors on thier house or it was just her illusion.

Last monday on my day off, We went to thier house for a visit. We had talked and lunch together and as soon as we were ready to leave, the ceiling fan upstairs, turned on by it self. I started having ghost bump and can't explain what I felt that time.. What I was wanted to do was to go home.

I am just so happy we have a small house,, coz I don't need to worry about wierd things will happen.

A man killed in Kroger...

Saturday after, when I was at work I've noticed one of our rehualr costumer, crying while getting some coffee from starbucks. I asked her why and she was just quite until she find time to talked to me comfortably.

It was about the news on tv last week, about a guy who has been killed at kroger while waiting on his car for his campanion. He was been robbed but sadly been killed after. It was her nephew who is the vicitm, I felt so sorry for the situation and told myself, better if I didn;t ask her instead coz I know how hard to tell a story like that.

I feel so bad why people just rather do bad things in order to get money instead of working hard for it. I feel so sorry to our costumer's family and I know how hard it is for them right now specially christmas is coming. Our prayers will be with ya'll.

My daily live activities

Today is a long day for us with my friends, we had lunch at home and went to the mall for a little shopping. We went to a place ot get some dresses for the coming occassion that we'll be having and it is just so hard to fit dresses coz sadly to say, I am still little bit big, from having my second child, hu hu hu it's to hard lose ur baby fats but It's all worthy. Just so jealous with my friends coz they are all skinny,huhuhu, but so happy to have this life and wonderful family. :-)




I miss the time to go out just by myself and friends without having my kids with me, but when I'm out w/out my kids, my thoughts is always just about them coz I miss them even just for a little while that I am away with them. Hard to understand the feeling of a mom, but I love being a mom. I am just so lucky that my husband let me go out without them, he is just the best husband on earth.. hehehehe.